Sunday, October 23, 2005

whoops

so apparently they have been posting and just not telling me.....tricky tricky

whoops

so apparently they have been posting and just not telling me.....tricky tricky

the end, or is it the beginning

I just wrote a ridunculously long post about why im ending it and my thoughts on ending it and it wouldn't publish so here is a condensed version of what i can remember:
  1. Science doesnt support it....yet
  2. Im too young and still growing
  3. I dont make effective use of my time right now
  4. I dont have a flexible enough schedule
  5. I currently sacrifice too much trying to nap at schedule times
  6. Sleep become job-like, another stressful task that you HAVE to do, rather than it being the free, joyful, relaxing and restorative activity i think its meant to be. (If i successful use my day i will want and need a nice long sleep).
  7. We don't live in a polyphasic world, and generally if you wanna live with this world and the monophasic sleepers of this world you have to succomb to their ways.

Notice that none of my reasons had anything to do with polyphasic sleep not being a valid and potentially fruitful idea. The hardest thing about giving up is having to swallow my pride, bite my tongue, and listen to all the ignorant fellas (who don't know a thing about polyphasic sleep, muchless sleep in general) say "I told you it wouldn't/doesn't work" (really all they have to do is look at me and this comes across). As I said earlier in this blog, after my first crash (if i would have gotten through those couple naps i might be singing a different song), I believe more in the possibility and benefits of this sleep schedule now then before i started. Another hard thing for me to swallow is I started this blog with the hope that i would aid the polyphasic sleep movement and give people a detailed example of how it can work and be successfully done; I finish this blog realizing I have only helped the otherside, given them one more example of how it doesn't work. Which of course is not right, becuase it was I who didnt work on it.....right now, and even though the experiment in some ways was a failure I will say that i had a lot of fun trying the schedule, and got a lot of stuff done during it (and that is supposed to be during what is the hard, adjustement week). Im still open to hear your comments, questions, concerns, advice on polyphasic sleep and sleep in general........Peace

the end, or is it the beginning

I just wrote a ridunculously long post about why im ending it and my thoughts on ending it and it wouldn't publish so here is a condensed version of what i can remember:
  1. Science doesnt support it....yet
  2. Im too young and still growing
  3. I dont make effective use of my time right now
  4. I dont have a flexible enough schedule
  5. I currently sacrifice too much trying to nap at schedule times
  6. Sleep become job-like, another stressful task that you HAVE to do, rather than it being the free, joyful, relaxing and restorative activity i think its meant to be. (If i successful use my day i will want and need a nice long sleep).
  7. We don't live in a polyphasic world, and generally if you wanna live with this world and the monophasic sleepers of this world you have to succomb to their ways.

Notice that none of my reasons had anything to do with polyphasic sleep not being a valid and potentially fruitful idea. The hardest thing about giving up is having to swallow my pride, bite my tongue, and listen to all the ignorant fellas (who don't know a thing about polyphasic sleep, muchless sleep in general) say "I told you it wouldn't/doesn't work" (really all they have to do is look at me and this comes across). As I said earlier in this blog, after my first crash (if i would have gotten through those couple naps i might be singing a different song), I believe more in the possibility and benefits of this sleep schedule now then before i started. Another hard thing for me to swallow is I started this blog with the hope that i would aid the polyphasic sleep movement and give people a detailed example of how it can work and be successfully done; I finish this blog realizing I have only helped the otherside, given them one more example of how it doesn't work. Which of course is not right, becuase it was I who didnt work on it.....right now, and even though the experiment in some ways was a failure I will say that i had a lot of fun trying the schedule, and got a lot of stuff done during it (and that is supposed to be during what is the hard, adjustement week). Peace, and im still open to hear your comments, questions, concerns, advice on polyphasic sleep and sleep in general.

the end, or is it the beginning

So i woke up this morning after my 6:25. I was a little tired but nothing to bad. Mainly, based on a few things i had read, I decided to quit this attempt at polyphasic sleep. There were a number of reasons. There are a number of testers after failed attempts that mentioned how they weren't even getting full use of of their day before and need to first concentrate on doing this and getting other parts of their life in order and start being completely healthy before they start. Another problem right now is the schedule. I could probably make it happen, but im already sacrificing a lot and eventually there are situations im going to run into where naps will be impossible or i will have ot consistently go more than 4 hours wihtout one. Not having freedom with my sleep goes a long with this and is another major factor. I discussed a few posts back that this is what i was missing the most, me being able to decide when i needed to go to bed.....and me sleeping in every once in a wihle if needed or just laying in bed thinking. The free relaxing thought beforehand, the dreams during, and the absense of an annoying alarm clock after words all make a good 8 hour sleep worth it. (now it can be somewhat successfully argued that once switched to full uberman my dreams would be there and the annoying alarm clock wouldn't, but i still wouldn't have the freedom and time to just think before i went to bed) The problem is that under the Uberman schedule, sleep becomes job-like. All the joys of sleeping are traded in for this structured view of sleep that sees sleep as just a nother necessary task that you should control, rather then a calming, restorative, relaxing break from it all. Another reason, going along with scheduling concerns, is simply becuase I constantly have to deal with a monophasic world and polyphasic sleep is simply just not accepted.....yet. Obviously there needs to be much more research and attention paid to this, I just dont feel like im the kid that should be doing that. I don't have a flexible enough schedule to adapt and im still young (20) and dont need to run the risk of doing something like this when my body is still growing and changing. In general no matter what age, you are taking a huge risk and although i do personally strongly believe that a polyphasic sleep schedule is healthy and possibly the science hasn't proven that you aren't slowly killing you brain and body. This a huge reason for me quiting, I decided that i shouldn't gamble with my health and mind when there is very little if any science backing this. You could mention that Leonardo and Buckminster lived long fruitful lives on the schedule, but you'd also be assuming that we have extensive knowledge about everything sleep related with them......and we really dont have a clue, just guesses, atleast in the case of leonardo..... and Buckminster, if his story is true, only did it for a couple of years. Obviously someone has to take the risks, either and preferebly in a sleep laboratory, or on their own and then force sleep researchers to take a look at them a few months or years into his schedule and compare it to a regular sleeper. This, right now, is not me. Maybe when i am over 25 and have total control over my schedule and am leading a really healthy, organized lifestyle i will give it another try.

What sucks for me the most is i set out to make this blog in efforts to prove the cycle's validity and provide a positive push for polyphasic sleep, but i end it having aided the other side of the argument, giving them one more failed internet blog. This is the hardest part for me to give up. I really have to swallow my pride and bite my tongue because i have that "i told you so" coming from the ignorant souls who now nothing about polyphasic sleep or sleep in general. As i said before though, i believe stronger in its possibility and potential fruitfulness now after i have given it up then before i started.

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can't really remember much of my 2:25 nap....and i just woke from it. Im guessing that means that i caught some sleep during it. I thought though i was awake already before my alarm started going off.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

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my 10:25 was unsuccessful, i am somewhat disapointed with myself that i didnt do more to make sure i got some sleep, but idk if it would have even helped since i am pretty much wide awake.